Lessons for the day:
Your first boyfriend can try to come back into your life and say sorry for the way he treated you, and the only thing you can say is "thank you for that, but it doesn't change anything".
Your first boyfriend can say that it was never that you didn't love him enough, only that he was too foolish to enjoy you, and you can say "I found someone who appreciated me from the beginning," and, "I am so much happier now than I've ever been in my life".
Your first boyfriend can come back and try to tell you all the things that you would have wanted him to say 14 years ago, and none of it can matter. Because sometimes you don't just look like a grown up, you are a grown up.
And at the end of it all when you're saying goodbye and he says "Take care, I love you," you don't have to say I love you back, because you know you don't. It feels good to let go.
I'm grateful for all the right things: the man I really do love with all my heart is spending time with his daughter, and even though I miss him like crazy, I know he's happy. Next week is our vacation, and for the first time in my life, I will have a vacation that is all about relaxing with the person I love. The kids are starting school this week, and they couldn't be happier. I have the best life I could have imagined right now, and I wouldn't have it any other way.